All I do is work.
I am a whore.
I hate this.
There is no one to blame but myself.
When I first started programming I would get so excited every time I started on a new bit of code. The thrill of solving the seemingly endless problems during coding made the hours I spent working fly-by. I could spend entire day within the algorithms and logical flows that I wouldn't even notice where I was until my coworkers would start to pack up to go home. Depending on where I was in this process, I would either be happy or sad to go home, but regardless, I usually went home.
Today, I make any and every sacrifice to continue working. Why am I such a sick bastard? I dislike it when anything that I am associated with fails and I hate it when anything I am directly responsible for fails. I understand the whole "learn from your mistakes" mantra but that only makes sense to me if those are small bumps on the road to success. I have learned from failure that it sucks.
So what to do?
Well either I redefine what I beleive is important in life
I am a whore.
I hate this.
There is no one to blame but myself.
When I first started programming I would get so excited every time I started on a new bit of code. The thrill of solving the seemingly endless problems during coding made the hours I spent working fly-by. I could spend entire day within the algorithms and logical flows that I wouldn't even notice where I was until my coworkers would start to pack up to go home. Depending on where I was in this process, I would either be happy or sad to go home, but regardless, I usually went home.
Today, I make any and every sacrifice to continue working. Why am I such a sick bastard? I dislike it when anything that I am associated with fails and I hate it when anything I am directly responsible for fails. I understand the whole "learn from your mistakes" mantra but that only makes sense to me if those are small bumps on the road to success. I have learned from failure that it sucks.
So what to do?
Well either I redefine what I beleive is important in life
OR
I rethink what defines success or failure for me.
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What's your third pick?
My third pick is to just say F*it, sell the rest of my crap, and roam the last remaining wilderness. I could easily become one of those "crazy" guys they interview on Discovery when doing documentaries on Alaska. I'd be the guy during the interview who would constantly twitch and say "My code is checked in."
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